How much more of my life is going to implode before I do?
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How much more of my life is going to implode before I do?
truck: dead
gnu-designs: monthly hosting charges just doubled, struggling to hold it up on my own
erika: lots and lots of pain, must fix, CV done, moving forward, don’t let go
work: [CENSORED]
health: lost too much weight, no energy, deteriorating, rationing meals, sleep erratic, more headaches followed by bloody noses, waif
code: what? completely different language to me now, it’s like Latin, parts of the words look similar, but the whole sentence doesn’t make sense
money: I haven’t seen it in so long, I forgot what it looks like, still haven’t done my taxes, Pfizer screwed me on my vacation pay, gnu-designs.com nailed me on business taxes, may have to cash out 401k just to survive
friends: who?
hardware: laptop_1: LCD dead, laptop_2: PCMCIA slot dead, home server: dead, year-old Hitachi 21″ monitor: dead
condo: white, white prison walls on all sides, no furniture, huge empty overly-expensive prison, trapped, suffocating
Now I’ve had to let go of two of my employees at gnu-designs. Relegated them back to normal users. If people are tasked with keeping up with billing our customers, and don’t… for over a year… what do you do?
I’ve been footing the bill for their (ab)use of the server, and received nothing in return, except a bill from the provider for bandwidth usage. Meanwhile these two employees get paid directly by customers in cash for their “design” of the customer sites. Not exactly a fair relationship.
gone.